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January 2011

New Year. New Denver.

In honor of a new year and a new season in Denver, I’m writing again. I've got some crazy stories, a renewed faith, and a new life. God was miraculously faithful in 2010. Have you ever had one of those moments when you knew you were right in the middle of God's plan for your life? After two years and praying for that moment, a faith crisis, and a cross-country move I'm feel certain that He's by my side.

This weekend, I dove into the Word and prayed for a verse that would serve as a reminder of the way the Lord promises to move in my life. This is the verse that flew off the page:

“Look, I am making everything new!”
And then he said to me,
“Write this down, for what I tell you is trustworthy and true.”

{Revelation 21:5}

With the way the Lord has provided for me this year in mind, not sharing my story in as many venues as He provides feels like a disservice to all the love, grace, and hope the Lord has poured into my life. So I’ll be sharing my journey: where I've been, what I've done, how I've changed, and where I'm being led. There's been more sweat, tears, and prayers than I care to remember. But if all that got me to this place, then I'm nothing but grateful.

Where do I go from here? What can I do better in 2011? With a little Help, I came out with two answers:

1.       God's will above all else.

I need to accept that God's will, will be done. This is such a beautiful truth. It means success in this life is not all on me. It also means that success in this life isn't defined by me. Success is living out the plan and the purpose God has for us. The Bible tells us that even the enemy unwittingly carries out the will of God. When there’s a moment in my day where I’m frustrated, I let myself down, or I’m overwhelmed, it can all be traced back to one fear: I’m scared of not being good enough, failing, and missing out on the best this beautiful life has to offer.

God's will, purpose, and plan for my life is not contingent on being "good enough." I can’t earn God's love, it’s mine through grace. Haven’t I learned yet, that truly, I’m not good enough? But...God is. And what’s the alternative to living with fear? Getting in my cozy box and staying there? Staying in my comfort zone, and living a life without new challenges, risks, and rewards? So that leads me to #2.

2.       Take the risks, and turn the outcome over to the Lord.

If I believe my God is who He says He is, then I need to trust Him. I need to trust Him with the risks, the outcomes, and the plan He has for my life. 

Getting me out of the cozy box, comfort zone is exactly what God has been up to in my life for two years. I've learned that it's the risks that release the joy into my life. Now that God has brought me all the way here, the question I should be asking God is, What else scary can I do for You? What other risks can I take for You? Because I haven't done much at all in comparison to what’s been done for me.

In 2011, I want fear to become irrelevant, and fearless to be my battle cry. Below is a picture from Bolder Canyon, Colorado. Yes, this girl was rock climbing. And no, I still cannot handle heights. My hands are sweating just looking at this picture. But one day in November, I handled heights. 

Here’s me slipping down the side of the mountain, screaming, and shaking in terror.


Here’s the next small step.


In this moment, I did something I thought I couldn't do. I fought my fear of heights...and won. This is both proof that I can power through fear, and my encouragement for 2011. 

I will hold unswervingly to the hope I profess. I will fight the good fight. I will press on towards the goal. I will learn to live and love like crazy along the way.

Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful.

{Hebrews 10:23}

with mad Hope,